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ma7907

a year ago

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Any mental health advice?

Hey,
It's my first time actually posting someting.
I've been fat since when I was young my family wasn't fat compared to me.
I had to go to a doctor with school and they told me I had obese, I don't know if I still have it but since that my whole family have been calling me fat/obese. (and they call it as a joke or as teasing me)
But they don't know I've been secretly crying about it every time I heard that word I can't even look into the mirror without crying even working out they will say things like she is still fat and if I want to eat something sweet they be calling me out with "you're weak, fatty ,obese. . . . . ) i have panic attacks aswell and I don't know what to do and I have been trying to tell my sister but I remember I once told her about it and eventually she used it on me and told my brothers and sister. They have been laughing at me since then too. I have the feeling if I tell it to someone they will do the same. I can't trust anybody at school, even my sisters I can't tell I once told my mom about it to and she also told my sisters and brothers I have the feeling that I can't bare with it anymore I have always set at last and always have been compared to by brothers and sisters, (i'm the youngest) I'm now in high-school and I have trust issues since young I once started doing Work-outs with my sisters in the pandemic in 2020 and did the 2 weeks shred after that I started binging and later on in 6-7th grade I started again but for a month I was happy until I started eating again and it happend multiple times I was done with my self I started crying, having panic attacks and hurting my self. . .
I tried minding my self and just ignoring them but they will always find a way to be angry at me or look for a fight .
Even my "friends" tell me I am with them cus I've got no frie ds in front of me and start laughing I had a bad relationship with my friends on my previous school and I told them all about it and what I expected they used it on me. So 2-3 weeks ago I started again with 4 different Work-outs and now I've changed my journey to full chloe ting. Sometimes I do not eat well and just starve I mostly ate to 300-600 calories a day which I actually have to eat 1200-1400 but sometimes i over eat too its hard and i know and yes, I'm ruined.

If you read this thank you and I hope you can give me some advise 💗 (edited by moderator)

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