I'm a teen and this is not my primary id on this app, i wanted to pour my heart but was shy to use my original profile. My parents are kinda strict and education is a priority. I try as much as i can but i mostly bring disappointment, because im average. I score well but not enough to get academic validation.

I am overweight, so i was bullied by boys in my class, that just really messed uo my confidence. I am still super conscious infront of them (they literally passed comments on everything, once me and my benchmate fought and stopped sitting together, they made a whole narrative about how i dint gave her enough space to sit on the bench or another time they'd say i would block their veiw because of how fat i was) most ppl around me pass loose comments that hurts me alot.
Boys gave me names, that i dont want to remember, my own family made fun of me cauz i have a poor posture, too much weight and an underconfident shabby personality.

When other girls put there pictures socials, there figures and dressing sense is compared to me. And i dont like that, i hate how god made me so ugly. My own sister is popular and way more beautiful than me. I'd remember everytime her friends were around she avoided being seen with me.

Every single girl around me is dating, being proposed, and being asked out but i am not. I keep telling myself the same story about how i gotta focus on studies and success and this is infatuation etc. It doesnt HELP!

I was born this way, i'd drink a bottle of juice i gain kg while other girls r dining out every 2nd day. I hate how my sis orfriend already have the body i would die for. Why i need to work for smthg other were naturally blessed with? Why i need to spend hrs working out and die for a change in gram? While OTHERS SIMPLY DONT HAVE TOO? Why do all boyz at school hate me?

I swear i never never did anything bad to anyone purposefully. But why me?