I want to join the military, which I am in the process of... which means the working out trying to lose 50 pounds, plus on top of that studying for the ASVAB. I don't know but I feel so mentally and physically burnt out.
I really don't know what to do. I can't afford to take a rest day and I also can't afford to stop studying. So I'm at a loss, I'm always tired but I still end up doing my workouts plus more. I just don't know why I feel so burnt out, and just in a depressed state. I'm trying to be positive and trying to find my way, but it's hard when it's just me doing it alone. I spend my days working out and studying alone. Which I know that in life your gonna have to do a lot of things alone, but humans aren't supposed to be. I just feel like I'm fighting this war and I'm totally getting massacred even if I'm still standing and doing the things I gotta do.


Although doing Chloe tings challenges help me out a lot cause in a way I'm not alone in it, but I still am physically and mentally.
I'm still showing up everyday when I don't want to and I sit my butt down to study as well but somehow nothing works. I'm not mentally there. I'm just sooo tired and I don't know how to fix it. I'm lost and im just trying to find my way again.
Physically I've changed cause I feel it that I've changed after 1 challenge finishing it and on my 2nd one I feel like I've gotten stronger and more fit but with the mental part I feel like I'm stuck and I don't know how to move forward, even if I'm fighting my mind and body every day. Everything put together is just really taking a toll on me, and I don't know how to fix it.