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#fitness-journeys

michellemarceaux

2 days ago

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Riding the struggle bus with a flat tire

Hi friends! I thought today I would share my recent journal entry with you because we all struggle and have good and bad days. Most of my posts are happy and positive, but this one is the reality I'm passing thru right now. I think it's important to know that we all struggle and we aren't alone.


 I'm having a rough time. I feel like a failure. I'm struggling daily to journal, to do anything outside of exercise and food tracking, I'm working so hard to get fit and it's just feeling like a struggle bus that's broken. I changed up from strength training to hit/ strength mix and now I'm not seeing measurement changes and the scale has gone up 2lbs. I have a few days left and then I'll be back on a new routine again. I'm really hoping this is just arthritis inflammation with the weather change this week.

I am proud of my cardiovascular health, I can do the hiit workouts for the full 45-60 seconds without much issue, my recovery is quick and I often go over because i miss the cue to stop. This feels good, this feels like it should be progress, but I see no results. I'm still walking .8 miles 5 days a week with wrist weights to keep up my steps and help my hips stay in line.

Yesterday I did so great on the weighted abs video, 6, 8 and 12lb dumbells for the exercises, reverse crunches are stellar and deeper every time, roll-up with weight going great, over under leg weaves at 8lbs is awesome. These are all great things but I still feel sad and defeated.

I think today I'll work on watching videos and making another custom schedule for myself to start soon.


 I ended up yesterday feeling defeated and slept thru dinner, I under ate because of it and my brain is saying things like I didn't deserve to eat anyway. My logic says when you starve you gain weight and I should have known better than to try hiit and risk going into cortisol gain because of my age, but it's also fighting with i needed to see if i COULD do hiit and I CAN, so I should be proud and just keep moving forward. Also there's no proof that I've gone into cortisol gain, my measurements are staying the same, it's just my brain trying to figure things out.

Anyway brains are fun (not) and hopefully I'll be over my slump soon. If you made it this far, thanks for listening, I hope you have a most blessed day. 💚💚💚

Riding the struggle bus with a flat tire
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