Hi guys!
So i grew up in a pretty much toxic family and under abuse i ran out when i was a teenager and since then i don't have any kind of contact with them.

Today i've recognized that my mind is setting higher and stricter rules for my capacity (generally not only fitness) and realized that my body is not cabaple to accomplish the rules or the goals that my mind put. And everytime i fail, i feel bad and untalented. I get anxious and i feel useless.

So i don't know if i'm being strict and cruel to myself or am i just trying to be disciplined ? Coz without discipline nobody can achieve success, right?

Couple minutes ago i saw a video a man said that, when you grow up in a toxic/narcissistic family you might think i'm not gonna be like them and yes you don't be like them to others but you treat yourself like your toxic parents. This blew my mind..

I'm confused how do i know if i'm just being disciplined or strict ?