Honestly I don't know who to talk about this since everyone around me have perfect relationship nd I just broke up with my 3 year old relationship the guy who committed he will marry me didn't even make a serious effort for me nd the best part is I believed him I got to know we had anxious avoidant relationship he is avoidant by nature I literally had to struggle for basic call but there were days where he would give me everything I ever wanted after treating like shit I blocked him finally after calling crying cribbing howling begging he didn't said anything nd blocked me then I again call him nd this time he was completely normal everything I wanted to hear he was saying when I finally thought I moved on nd then suddenly when the weekend holiday got over he said come over will talk nicely them I asked what are we he said I don't wanna answer he said he don't want this then I got a servere breakdown I mean why did he played with my feelings for 2 days nd I m not a kid I m 24 that guy was 29 I know it's over finally I just feel everytime I talk to him I m more drained then before it was a long distance too the fact is I. Should be happy I got out of it but I m not I m empty I don't feel anything not like I wanna cry I just feel soo disconnected I just want to sleep be in my cocoon thou I m going out meeting people I m okay but the moment I come back I start being numb like soo hollow please please please if someone has gone through me please help me I m not okay I don't wanna talk to my real life people cause they don't understand nd since he was my bestfriend my everything I couldn't now please suggest me I wanna get out of this I m getting triggered on small things I just feel soo heavy 🥹🥹🥹🥹