I don’t know if anyone else feels this way but I’ve definitely noticed ever since I’ve lost weight, I have an intense fear of gaining it back and it has lead to food and exercise related issues.
I’ve been told by people that I’m “skinny” but it definitely doesn’t feel that way to me. I know that it’s most likely just body dismorphia, but especially so in the last few weeks I feel like my body has been filling out more than I want it to. The number on scale hasn’t changed (I know the scale isn’t everything) but the weights I’ve been using haven’t increased either and it’s really frustrating.
Because of all of this, my anxiety has been through the roof leading me to make poor food choices that I’m not especially proud of which then leads to more anxiety and the process repeats.
I know that this is kind of just a vent and if you’ve read all of this I hope you can relate on some level 😭. But I’m just curious if anyone else gets stuck in this cycle of extreme anxiety about all of the work that you’ve put into your body being undone, or just the fear of going back to the way you were before your fitness journey.