I remember not long ago this boy and I had liked each other back I would talk about him to my siblings non-stop to the point where they got annoyed I eventually went back to school in September and I saw him in my class I was nervous because I didn't expect him to be there until he started flirting with me I didn't do it back he kept going to my seat and talking to me trying to start a Convo but I remained silent not long ago I saw him with a girl but it was too close he told me he wasn't dating anyone she had a body and I was mad at myself because of how I let myself go so much its the fact that he lied to me so many times I would see him with a girl then dated another and another I had liked him since 1st g my first ever crush was friends with my cousin he eventually told me back that he liked me in 6th g but I was home schooled that time I started liking him talking so many good and positive things about him I went to my cousin graduation and I saw him there so I went up and said "hey, congratulations..." my mom knew about him and she just smiled and I kept looking back at him and he did the same he wanted my phone number but once again I don't have my own phone and it makes me sad bc I see him and he smiles at me but my smile isn't the same anymore its like we are strangers and its sad bc we had something yk and my friend saw him with his gf and he told him ooh "____ you like her" and then he responds saying "ewww noo, she's fat & ugly" those words hit me hard i just felt so sad i was crying in class and i thought different of him my words of positive and nice it wasn't him he changed so much to the point where his brother sees me and just smiles and then he just passes by me i remember the time i passed by his brother and his gf and i just looked back and saw him already staring at me and i just looked at him and then looked down didn't even smile because even if you didn't say those words it still broke me my friend also told me i'm built like a box those words i still remember i remembered being so sad and ashamed of how i gotten and started not eating and exercising crazy till i remembered i wanna do it the right way eat healthy, water, and exercise daily i felt sad we don't talk anymore i mean i want to but i never had it in me to go up to him he was in my class for the staar and his smile left me sadden and idk he was my 1st ever crush and he liked me back as well it just made me sad on how much he changed and my P.O.V of him wasn't the same and won't ever be the same. i'm happy for him i put up a smile whenever i see him with his gf and whenever my cousins or my fam mentioned his name i just get sad i hated him for a while but then i remembered God teaches us to forgive those who hurt us, so i've forgiven him. i've been wanting to tell him that God loves you and he has a plan for you but i never had it in me i pray for him everyday praying that he follows God and that God guides him he went through a lot as a kid and i wouldn't imagine